A Thought to PEN

A Thought to PEN Welcome to my personal blog page! I am Arpit Arun Das, a Project manager and a part time blogger.

Soulful SolitudesIn shadows cast by the setting sun's grace,A solemn groom, with a silent embrace,He contemplates the pa...
19/10/2023

Soulful Solitudes

In shadows cast by the setting sun's grace,
A solemn groom, with a silent embrace,
He contemplates the path they now tread,
His heart aches quietly for the words unsaid.

His bride, with a heart so pure and true,
But a longing within, known to very few,
She walks through life with a half-hearted soul,
His subtle sadness, a growing toll.

She needs instruction for each step to take,
Her reliance on guidance, for love's sake,
He doesn't ask for her to do it all,
Just yearns for her to heed his heart's call.

In his eyes, there's an unspoken plea,
For her to perceive his dreams, to truly see,
To share in the journey, hand in hand,
Not just as an observer in life's grandstand.

He longs for her to embrace life's dance,
Not just go through the motions, in a trance,
To understand without the need for a guide,
To stand beside him, fully on love's tide.

For it's not perfection he seeks in her heart,
But the depths of her love, an essential part,
He hopes she'll grasp the unspoken quest,
And love with a whole heart, at their very best.

In this union, he yearns for her to find,
A willingness to grow, both heart and mind,
To meet him halfway, to bridge the divide,
In love's embrace, where their spirits reside.

Though this yearning resides in his heart's core,
He knows love's journey holds so much more,
With patience, he'll guide, with love he'll abide,
In hope that she'll someday walk by his side.

A Dwindling strength and a heavy day:It is well written: "On your worst days do not look in the mirror and call yourself...
16/06/2020

A Dwindling strength and a heavy day:

It is well written: "On your worst days do not look in the mirror and call yourself pretty/handsome. Call yourself trying, call yourself surviving, call yourself learning how to get through a day, a week, a month or year. Call yourself still learning"

One day I beleive it is the greatest idea ever that I am working on, The next day I think its the worst that I have ever worked on & I swing between that a lot. Some days I am happy with what I am doing, and the next day I am desperate-it is not working.

People are indeed deceptively simple, but for me, I try to simplify things, one can say it is what I have learnt or one can presume, he is nice, either way the motto is "I need to understand."

One needs to understand and accept at the same time,that the hardest part is developing the idea and that can take many years. For every eye the beauty has a different definition, but I just think that whatever my eyes touch should be beautiful, tasteful, appealing & important. Where am I wrong?

We live in a culture of blame. People will blame anyone or anything for their misery sooner than take the responsibility to own it and make it better. It is sincerely beleived by me, that if you believe that it is someone else's responsibility to fix whatever needs fixing, you remain part of the problem, and, therefore, just a culpable as everyone else who believes someone else should shoulder the burden of initiating change. Righfully it can be said wuitting & blaming have become more common in today's culture which has been palpably adapated in the work ethics, rather than being perseverant & responsible.

Lastly, would like to conclude as everyday is not a success, every month is not a success, every year is not a success but you have to celebrate the good.

Depression:"Depression is melancholy minus its charms"Every man has his secret sorrows which the world is ignorant and o...
15/06/2020

Depression:

"Depression is melancholy minus its charms"

Every man has his secret sorrows which the world is ignorant and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad. The word depression is a side effect of dying.
Multiple questions buzz my mind.
Why do you want to shut out the life any misery, any depression, since after all you don't know what work these conditions are doing inside you?Why does any one want to prosecute himself/herself with the question of where all this is coming from and where is it going to?

Simply put:
If someone asks you how you are, you are meant to say FINE. It is but obvious. You cannot say say that you cried yourself to sleep last night because you hadn't spoken to another person for two consecutive days, you are unable to express your emotions, you are living an obnoxiusly nostalgic life. "FINE" is what you say.

For any person suffering from anxiety or depression what he feels, how he reciprocates, every reaction matters otherswise the simple thought that runs through the mind is "I just want to sleep, like one sleeps in a coma. Anything, just to get rid of all the thoughts, whispers, in my mind."
For some people, depression is a one way of coping with the world, like some get drunk, some do drugs. It is as if they are visualising everything, everyone in black & white instead of the vibrant colors & shades that they know exists.

Lastly depression is not a war you win, It is a battle you fight everyday. An unending & unstoppable battle. The sadness of the world has different ways of getting to people, but it succeeds almost everytime. Every depressions ends up in self pity and self pity is rooted in people taking themselves too seriously.

A realistic obervation deriving a serious conclusion by every depressed person, is the sense of being accompanied by a wrathlike self observer who watches dispassionately as his companion struggles.

12/06/2020

A sense of despair, a sense of dismal runs in the air today. Never ever witnessed such an odious situation. Running through some pages in the web, an insightful quotes drew my attention. It said:

"They gave me a bunch of drying petals & asked me to create something worthy, I tried to create perfume.
Now they want the drying petals back as they expected me to make bookmarks instead"

Some readings are worth a time as one can pro-actively relate with his/her current/past experience. Well, truth to be tol, i re-read the line twice which says:
"A person should not to be too honest. Straight trees are cut first & honest people are screwed first"

The biggest suspence of our life is indeed, we do not understand who is praying for us & who is playing with us.

People tell me, opportunitites will knock at every corner of your life which would bring happiness, but guess what, "I guess, my life is a circle.".

03/06/2020

When humans act on with cruelty we characterise them as animals, yet the only animal that displays cruelty is humanity.

As understood and seen, wild animals rarely kill for sport, but humans, are the only one to whom the torture and death of fellow creatures is amusing in itself.

Teaching children, not to kill an animal is as valuable to the child as to the animal. It is absolute in itself.
Needless to say, it is easy to kill a blind, a dumb, a deaf, a crippled, but how can it be easy and i must add, amusing to kill a being, who has all the senses active with an exorbitant hunger.

31/05/2020

"Observation"

If someone spends their time crtiquing and tearing me down, it just means they are fundamentally unhappy in their own life. They are deeply unfulfilled and have a pervasive lack of self worth. Guard your thoughts and there will be a little fear about your actions.There are no little people or unimportant lives, everyone has there own story to tell, everyone is a writer and someone are confined to hearts.

Simply put, judging people based on your life story is simple. Everyone one you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about & an untold story of pain, hurt , sadness and learning experiences that make them love and live.The older we get the more we realize the value of privacy of cultivating the circle and letting only certain people in.

It is understood one can never remain calm, at a given point of time as boxed up emotions burst out when your heart is no longer pleading your mind. Some actions definitely screams hurt..

Have learnt since my exisitence, to let your sorrow smile once in a while.

Express...Myself, a pomegranate, looks whole from outside but distributed into hundreds of parts inside. Its is absolute...
20/05/2020

Express...

Myself, a pomegranate, looks whole from outside but distributed into hundreds of parts inside.

Its is absolutely crazy that, people who cannot express themselves in real life will mostly become writers as secret souls.

Honestly weird, but yes, I notice everything, I mean everything. I notice when the way someone talks to me starts changing. I notice the little things people do, & the little things they used to do, every single detail. I never say anything. It is as it is. It’s a habit, to look someone/something “too deep”, because I realized from a young age that there’s always more than what meets the eye.

Sometimes people do get confused, being a noisy person, how can one be so inconspicuous in expressing in what one feels?

It is what can be put to words that, life is an audition for my feelings which cannot be expressed in front of anyone. Simply put, my mouth cannot translate the emotions my heart says & mind contemplates.

It is well written & I quote “I have a deeply hidden & inarticulate desire for something beyond the daily life.”

Basically, there is no answer to the uncertainty but a conclusion which if given words to will be as such:
“I am made and remade continually. Different people draw different realm from me, but there is always a total recall at the end of the day, just like music, the inarticulate speaks the longest.”

"Finding Reasons"They say, a person needs just three things to be happy in the world: someone to love, something to do a...
10/05/2020

"Finding Reasons"

They say, a person needs just three things to be happy in the world: someone to love, something to do and something to hope for.

The dire situation never confronts but tests your reliability and resilience.

Finding someone to love would is like opening office during lockdown. No one to be found, few roaming in the streets with a mindset of Money heist

To do something one should understand the essence of what is being done. Reading between the lines is an art. Interpretation of the art has been termed as politics. Interaction with self is a one way directive. You talk what you want to, you listen what you wish for, and you understand what gives you the pleasure..

To hope for something is futile for the reasons as mentioned above

Sometimes I wonder, it is damn scary what a simple smile can hide.

We just say "I want you to be happy", but deep inside our heart we still want to be the reason of their happiness.

I try to hide the commotion in my mind, still the eyes speak.

I'm strong; I can stand alone and take care of everything I need to... so all I need is a sense of fostering and love. I...
10/05/2020

I'm strong; I can stand alone and take care of everything I need to... so all I need is a sense of fostering and love.
I want someone with me when the sun gives way to the stars and when it returns to relight the colours of the daytime. All I want is your kisses, your hugs and that smile I can see in your eyes. Be my rest, be my Sunday best and together will be each other's comfort in any storm

The same was contemplated by you since my birth. Santa Roy

I will be with you forever.

The sun in you're heart will continue,
To shine in the future in all you do.
The most special person in my life by far,
I'm happy to say is you!

Happy Mother's day to You..

Often in life I have been called strong. Though I know they mean it as a complement still my heart nosedives and there i...
10/05/2020

Often in life I have been called strong. Though I know they mean it as a complement still my heart nosedives and there is a wave of despodency in my soul when I learn it.

For what I show is a forced resiliency, a way I've had to be in my life just to survive. I've always wanted to find the absolute reason to be truly happy and for that I knew I must carry on, to keep walking through every pain and hurt.

What I want is to be soft, and for softness to be alright. I want to be helpful and do what it is my soul and heart need to be healed.

I believe in service, not servitude. I believe giving of the self, of giving always with love, yet I've learnt that I have limits. To call a person strong or brave sounds so nice, but if in reality they are like a horse being run to death and praised for its speed and beauty, there is a cruelty to it.

For all I know that crying summons another person to inflict pain, so why cry? "If you cry I'll give you something to cry about." So please don't look at my dry face and tell me I'm strong, because it pains.

The lines are inspired by certain articles, but the intent & the emotion is envisaged & potrayed are real.

Santa RoySameer PradhanSameer Bhai Enthusiast

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