02/18/2019
I’ve been extra hard on myself these past few weeks. Feeling overwhelmed and thinking everything I do is “not good enough”. Where does that come from? Not sure. Even this post felt “not good enough”. I started criticizing the imperfect flourishes, the choice of color, etc. then I had to stop myself and I asked, Where is this coming from? I canceled this Saturday’s event last minute because I had a lot to catch up with a microbiology class I started last month. And although that was a wise move, I beat myself up all day for doing so because I hate canceling on ANYONE, for overcommitting and letting people down. I had no mercy or grace on myself. And truth be told, I can show that same lack of grace and mercy on others. Until God reminds me “The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; His mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness”. A reminder I constantly need. My husband says I’m the “most gracious” person he knows and I know it’s because God continues to show me how much I need it, how much He Himself gives it to me regardless if I’m not giving it to myself, and I know that feeling of needing grace and mercy but not having it. Grace definitely does not come from within myself. It comes from the one who freely gives it. From His Holy Spirit and I am forever grateful. I needed this reminder and I’m hoping it reminds you too. There is grace for you this morning and every morning.
