Twist of Whimsy

08/10/2026

08/04/2026

Last week I told you about my husband leaving the Marine Corps after 22 years. This week I want to tell you the part nobody asks about.

What happens to the wife?

For 10 years, I was a military wife. That wasn't just a description... it was my whole operating system. I could pack a house in days. I could solo-parent through a deployment. I could show up at a new duty station, find the school, find the doctor, find the commissary, and build a life from scratch... again... because that's what we do.

Military wives speak a language. We don't have to explain the acronyms. We don't have to explain why we're crying in the car line during homecoming week or why we flinch when the phone rings during a deployment. Somebody on base always just... got it. Instantly. That's the thing about that community. You're never starting from zero with each other, even when you just met.

And then we moved to Louisville. Civilian world. And suddenly I was starting from zero with EVERYONE.

I didn't know how to make friends out here at first.

Civilian moms would talk about living in the same town their whole lives, having their college roommate two streets over, their mom watching the kids every Friday. And I'd just stand there thinking... I've moved nine times. My best friends are scattered across the country in time zones I have to count on my fingers. My village got reassigned every two years.

And the questions. "So where are you from?" I still don't know how to answer that one. Illinois? California? North Carolina? Yuma? All of it? None of it?

Here's the part that surprised me though. The hardest part wasn't that civilians didn't understand military life. It's that I didn't know who I was without it.

For 10 years, my life was organized around his service. The moves, the deployments, the waiting, the holding it all together. I got GOOD at it. And when it ended, all those skills... the packing, the adapting, the surviving... suddenly had nowhere to go.

Who am I when I'm not the one holding down the fort? Who am I kidding? I am still holding down the fort but in a different way.

I'm still figuring that out. Eight years into civilian life and I'm STILL figuring that out. But here's what I know so far: I'm a wife. A mom. A woman of faith who's rediscovering what that means. A creative who makes bows and wreaths and dreams up new ideas in the shower. A person... not just a role.

Turns out the military wife didn't disappear. She's still in here. She's just learning that all that strength she built... the adaptability, the resilience, the showing up when it's hard... works out here too.

To the military wives transitioning out: you're not losing your identity. You're finally getting to meet the rest of it.

And to the civilian friends who've welcomed me anyway, even when I couldn't answer "where are you from"... thank you. You have no idea what that means.

08/03/2026

You're not losing your identity. You're finally getting to meet the rest of it

07/30/2026

It's your turn! Drop your tiny wins in the comments. We are celebrating every win this week!

07/29/2026

Win Wednesday, invisible edition.

This week's win is one of those things nobody claps for. There's no gold star for it. Nobody saw it happen. But I know what it took.

Some of the biggest wins are the ones that look like nothing from the outside. The phone call you'd been avoiding. The apology. The rest you actually took. The mouth you kept shut.

So here's your permission slip... claim the invisible one. What did you do this week that nobody saw but YOU know was big? I'll go first in the comments if you go second.

07/29/2026

I've survived worse. So yeah... I believe things are gonna get better.

07/29/2026

Win Wednesday!!

07/29/2026

07/28/2026

Twenty-two years. That's how long my husband was a Marine.

Twenty-two years of orders and deployments and moves and a mission bigger than himself. Twenty-two years of knowing exactly who he was when he woke up in the morning.

And then one day... it was over.

People think retirement from the military is like retirement from any job. You have a party, you get a plaque, you sleep in the next Monday. That's not what it is. Not even close.

Because the military isn't a job. It's an identity. It's a language. It's a whole world with its own rules, and when you leave it, nobody hands you a manual for the world you're walking into.

In 2018, my husband took off the uniform... and walked into a college classroom.

Twenty-two years of leading Marines. And then he's a full-time student, sitting in lecture halls with kids who weren't even BORN when he enlisted. Backpack instead of a pack. Syllabus instead of orders. Kids complaining about an 8am class to a man who spent two decades up before the sun.

Nobody prepares you for that part.

Nobody tells you that a man who could handle deployments and combat zones might feel more out of place in a classroom than he ever did overseas. Nobody tells you that "freedom" can feel like free-falling. Nobody tells you that the same structure that wore him down for 22 years was also the thing holding him up... and that going back to school was him building a new one, credit hour by credit hour.

And for him, layer PTSD and TBI on top of that. Healing from invisible wounds is hard enough inside the military, where at least people understand what you've been through. Out here? People see a guy in a ball cap at the grocery store. They don't see 22 years. They don't see what those years cost.

I watched my husband figure out who he is without the uniform. And I want to be careful here, because this is his story too and he's fought so hard... but I'll say this: watching someone you love rebuild their entire identity from the ground up is one of the most humbling things you'll ever witness.

Some days were hard. Some days still are. But he keeps showing up. He keeps building. He's learning who Matt is... not the rank, not the billet, not the Marine. Just Matt. Husband. Dad. The guy who's finally home for dinner every night after two decades of us never being sure.

And you know what? That guy is worth getting to know.

Twenty-two years of service doesn't end when the paperwork is signed. The reintegration takes years. It's still happening. We're still in it.

But if you're a family in that season right now... if your person just took off the uniform and neither of you knows exactly who you are on the other side of it... give it time. Give each other grace. The mission changed. It didn't end.

The new mission is home. And he's crushing it more than he knows. And so are you!