09/20/2019
Years ago, I caused a rift in my circle of girls. I repeated something unthinkingly. Everyone called me TeleTraci. Well, that was a difficult moniker to besr, but I do get excited and talk a lot and fast. So I sucked it up and laughed with everyone and there were some funny jokes, but it hurt inside. Well, this hurt that I caused hurt twice as muvh. I came home to heal and now my mothers, sisters, friends were all mad at each other and I caused it. The funny thing was no one was mad at me. There was a:$100 Vosctco gift card involved and I couldn't get either to take it. I really needed the food and other things, but I asked both parties to allow me to give it to them later, they both said they'd think abo u it. So in my heart I began to see if there was someone as desperate as me right at that point and I'd pay it forward.
Aug. 1st my medical transportation company changed. I figured I had annoyed them when the dispatcher said they couldn't take Riverside County clients any longer due to a pay dispute. I called one of this company's employees because the sister was pregnant and there was to be a shower. That woman told me the company had folded completely and one of the driver's told me the main transport company implied their old company was a bunch of things and lists and they probably wouldn't want to use them as a reference. Well, one woman who lost her job has a son who is 10, 11 maybe, and he's sweet, but can whine with the best of yhem. S. lost her daughter to Leukemia three years ago. I told her I appreciated her pain, however no woman was going to want her son as a mate of she continued to fiddle him. She said she didn't care, she had lost her baby girl and was going to spoil this son.
When I called to check on her, I offered her a bunch of our frozen items we didn't seem to be eating. I happened to have $50 cash and gave the cash to them, another delay isn't going to affect the young lady I he the card for. So we had been discus how to get the money and how and who could do the bank, but although I trust both of them, I had trusted my boys with my bank card and when I got picked up 51-50 and was screaming out all the abuse and doing things I'd never do, like throwing pie in an old lady's face (Do you know how much I love and respect my Grandmother Jane Wills), then you will indeed I was raging out my abuse. After I screamed and misbehavedmisbehaved, I was finally able to relax and then I got to do crafts in the art room, and then the 72-hour hold was up and I thought I was going down for the full two weeks mandatory hold after the observation hold. Believe me when I say I didn't remember my eye problems about the kaleidoscope eyes, but I could see how people thought I was crazy because my eyes were doing their own thing. Thanks to your posts I do remember now. Thank you all for understanding my see and why I must protect the innocent, as well as the guilty for now (I he got thoughts and, yes, I do know what you did, but Lori (my heart's other half) and she and I agreed right we were correct, but I was intense or fee again and their job was to keep me safe. So either my girlfriend were hiding my eyes or two reminding me to breathe. So here's another shout out to my girls. My medical drivers were overwhelmed next werwere broke and I sent them out of my brother,s place with three huge bags of food and other ideas for
