04/25/2024
Hello my dear friends-thank you all for your outpouring of love, prayers, positive thoughts & energy and incredible support for myself and Kev. It uplifts us both. It is extremely humbling. I will share more after I’ve had more time to rest- the worst, the good, the hopeful and my plan to willfully and stubbornly overcome what is within my ability. I will share that the doctors did find I have systolic heart failure and it is considered severe, it is not a good situation. However, here is what is more important to me right now-please read (it does take me a very long time to text right now and it is hard for me to talk please.)
Everyone-I love you, always. To All, to my Christians, to all people of faith, to all seeking, my belief in Jesus Christ sustains me and it is not difficult for me to trust in Him. I am O-K. In fact I am joyful in my pain, this is no lie. This is not me being delusional, I am not in denial, nor are my diseases and disabilities confusing me-
I continue to find that the greater my fight is in this life the easier it is for me to see the true burdens that exist, especially those I have laid upon myself. It is an amazing gift to have my worries, my faults and anything that is not my purpose revealed so that I may lay them down and let them go. The true test of my faith is when I struggle the most, I see that how I respond is who I am- the good and bad. I find myself grateful in my faith because I am trusting God and unburdened by what will happen. God does not hate me, to the contrary- Jesus loves me greater than any. God reminds me that He is in my corner, and I see all of you are as well. Additionally, I know that God is in control. It’s possible the outcome may not be in the manner or timing I might wish, but that is small, very small compared to what I have already gained and what I will yet gain eternally. You are loved & I love you, fiercely.