05/25/2026
This weekend has been particularly challenging for me, as I've been trying to put on a brave face and pretend everything is fine.
However, my thoughts have been consumed by my daughter, Ashley. I've been reflecting on the past, when we would both eagerly anticipate the start of summer. I would usually plan a trip for Memorial Day Weekend to kick-start the season. We would often visit New Braunfels, San Antonio, or once we went to attend a concert at Six Flags, where we had the opportunity to meet performers Aly and AJ.
I always knew we would have a wonderful time, regardless of the activity. Our bond was incredibly close, and I never imagined a life without her. We shared a deep connection, and she brought me immense joy. I often referred to her as my little ray of sunshine, and I felt grateful to have her as my daughter.
However, in the present, she is no longer a part of my life. She is living in Colorado, and it seems there is no room for me in her life at all. She no longer calls me about every little thing, and in fact, she doesn't call at all. Her actions have truly crushed me. I do not understand at all. I've had a blanket made from over 32 concert shirts from the concerts I took her to, but I haven't sent it to her as it brings me comfort. It serves as a reminder of our past, which she seems to have forgotten. I miss my baby girl dearly, and I'm struggling to come to terms with the loss of our relationship. My therapist suggests that we experienced a trauma bond during a difficult period in our lives. I'm trying to hold on to hope that she will one day remember the truth and reach out. I believe that everyone deserves forgiveness, and no one should have to pay for the same mistake repeatedly. I'll be sleeping with her blanket tonight! I will pray for her and probably cry. But, I will wake up tomorrow to a New Day and a New Chance for a better day. God Bless.... Good night.
