09/15/2021
❤️❤️ Peace Out (for a minute) ❤️❤️
Maybe an overshare but hopefully also a conversation starter? I’m realizing that I like it here just a little too much & often not in the healthiest ways.
As so many of us do, I hang out with depression & anxiety pretty much all of the time and this sleek & alluring black rectangle is a constant fixture at that party.
Numbing & dissociation are my main anxiety coping behaviours, which for me lead to self-isolation, inactivity & then depression which gives anxiety a hefty boost, as I realize that I’m not taking care of the things in life that make me feel safe, healthy and happy.
I am almost never not looking at my phone and don’t get me wrong, I love it for giving me an insight into the lives of the people in my community & keeping me in touch with folks all over the world who I’d otherwise have no contact with. I love looking at photos & videos and seeing how the people that I look up to in business, do business.
But right now, it’s feeling compulsive & draining & I don’t want to numb out real life anymore. Overconsumption is often my go-to…food, booze, spending, screens…it’s embarrassing to think about & I’m hoping that a bit of a reset will help me feel at home with myself, instead of always looking for ways to avoid her.
Long story short…I need these apps off my phone so that I can take my eyes off it, too!
In the meantime I’m gonna:
❤️ focus on getting our Indiegogo perks into the hands of our backers
❤️ figure out a strategy for social media, so that I can hang here but not live here
❤️ get more consistent with communicating via weekly emails
❤️ be on the lookout for folks who want to join me as business partners…I’ve flown solo long enough (even my therapist says so!) and would truly love for the running of Seb’s to feel like a gaggle of happy neighbours working together to build something great for our community
❤️ keep searching for the perfect space for Seb’s to be out in the real world…that’s what this is all about after all!
I’m gonna hang here for a bit and chat, if chat comes up & always feel free to email me at [email protected]
See you around the neighbourhood (for real!)
Susan ❤️❤️
