23/10/2025
Feels so heavy,it's like draging all of by myself along this way.
Anytime when i say it louder,silence is your treatment.
When someone point their finger at your fail,upset is your answer.
I remember when i was just a girl with a dream.
I always wish,someday i Will have a family (home) that will share our stories,our struggling and our dream together.
But reality never slap me this hard.
I get the always sober,brokenhome and pathetic boy that trapped in adult man body.
He never feels happy and if he happy isnt with me or with my daughter. But it's him and his friend (you laugh the loudest with them).
Really i don't care,everyone have their past and have their coping mechanism to handle their trauma differently. But still dwelling in your trauma digging your bad memories following your not favorite dad's step. It ruin my dream.
I don't want to push you to act religious but just act like an adult dad.
Not like junior highschool boy that accidentally have a kid.
Be responsible not to me not to my daughter but to yourself.
I don't know if you understand or not but if you know please take a mirror and look at you and your past. Just remember how you hate your family at that time?
Then look at your daughter.
I want to be a better parents,i don't want my self past become my daughter future.
Thats why i changed.
