31/08/2026
Now this was the cake that made me cry again; not because of the usual stress I'm having whenever I finish one with limited time, or maybe even out of sadness that sometimes visits me on rainy days, but plainly because of godly sorrow.
While in the middle of decorating this cake for our Church anniversary, I started out feeling joyful and honored that I get to create and dedicate my art and creation for His glory. Minutes later, my mood changed, I could not stop thinking about how messy my life was in my 20s and 30s. Living against God's commands and will led me to facing the consequences of my selfish life decisions that eventually filled me with many worries, fear, and doubt about my life purpose.
But God has been so faithful to me even on times that I failed him because of the pride and self righteousness I had in me. I remembered a night on my early 30s that I could not sleep after a fight with my husband, was crying and talking to God saying, "Lord di ko na kaya. Pagod na pagod na 'ko. Ikaw na lang pong bahala." And surprisingly I had fallen asleep, and when I woke up, I felt recharged and did not feel broken and sad anymore. I knew in my heart it was God's comfort that helped me overcome the sorrow i had that night.
Years passed. Surrendering my life to the Lord was the best decision I have ever made. It filled me with overflowing joy and hope by His grace. I thank God that now I am able to finally see his mercy & grace I know I dont deserve. I thank God for the problems and challenges he allowed me to experience. Without all of them, I would not have felt His presence in my life. He is indeed the God of Love who heals broken hearts and restores relationships between families. I wasted 2 decades of my life trying to rely on my own strength, was bound to destruction because of my sins, and was once a LOST SOUL. But now I am FOUND.
THANK YOU MY LORD
for never giving up on me.
Everything I do, I do it for you.
ALL GLORY TO YOU JESUS π€