07/06/2021
TRUTH is like an alarm clock you might not want to hear it, but it will wake you up from your dreams and bring you back to reality.
Sa buhay, mas marami ang kumakapit sa fairy tales kasi mas madaling paniwalaan ang mga bagay na kathang isip lang kesa paniwalaan ang katotohanan. Life is full of surprises. Sabi nila you can choose but you don't have a choice . Life is complicated. May alarm clock na nandyan to wake you up. Reality makes you realize how hard to live, but sometimes it stops when the battery needs to be replace. ang alarm clock, pag hindi na gumagana ang battery you have to replace it. Parang tao lang yan, once your tired pwedi ka mag pahinga but like a clock, wag kang susuko kasi may tao na nakadepende at naniniwala na bawat pag ikot mo. Malay mo ma point mo na ung right time and right moment ng sa ganon hindi kana matatakot sa reality.
(Standing here outside at the airport watching those family who'se happy and lucky to see their love ones. Seing those heavy traffic here in manila. Seing those beggar looking for a good samaritan. That Makes me feel lucky to finally back home pero reality makes me realize na tulad ng pag balik ko dito sa philippines is also bringing back all the memories, hates and sadness that makes me decided to leave this country 3 years ago. Hindi madali na bumalik sa bansa mo kahit na comfortable ka dito, deciding to be home is like deciding to live miserable again and thats the truth that makes you realize how unlucky you are. Pero kahit ganon. Im also a young woman who admire those fairy tales and wishing for the happily ever after)
KRIIIIIIING KRIIIIING
(PHONE RANG)
KHYTE --" yes manong? Ok i'm just waiting here outside. Ok"
( i end the call, it was manong edd. Family driver namin for almost 10 years i guess. Sya ang susundo sakin napaaga lang ang flight ko kaya wala pa sya dito. After 5 minutes dumating na din sya)
MANONG EDD--" Welcome home mam Khyte 😊
ME--" Thanks manong"
(Sumakay na ako and let manong carry my things and after nya masakay sa trunk ng kotse yong mga gamit ko umalis na kami. Naka tingin lang ako sa labas ng bintana the whole time, it's been 3 years, 3 years na ang nakalipas simula ng piliin kong iwan ang pilipinas para sa korea. Don na ako nag aral at wala na sanang balak bumalik pa ng pilipinas. Ayoko na sanang balikan ang buhay dito at ang mga memories na naging dahilan kung bakit ko iniwan ang buhay ko sa lugar na to. Naka tanaw ako sa malayo trying to hold my tears. Kapag naaalala ko ung nangyari 3 years ago, it felt like kahapon lang yon nangyari kasi andito pa yong sakit. Thats the main reason why i choose not to go back here pero last week my nanny called me and sinabi nya sakin na i need to go home kasi si daddy is in comma because of heart attack. Ayaw ko man but i have no choice. Ayaw ko man makita ang mommy ko because of what happen dati, but my dad needs me. Before my dad get in this incident he called me and he wants me to go back and untie said that my dada's dying wish is to see me and my mom together at sino ba naman ako for not letting it happen, alam ko time makes me more stronger and it change me a lot but my father needs me. And i want to see him kasi hindi namn natin alam ang susunod na mangyayari. Even if i don't, i did. Masakit alalahanin ang mga bagay na kinalimutan na but i don't want na pati ito pag sisihan ko pa ulit.)
MANONG EDD--" Mam, andito na po tayo sa mansyon"
TO BE CONTINUE.........
