24/10/2020
"๐โ๐๐ ๐ผ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ข๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ ๐ข๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐, ๐ผ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐ ๐ ๐๐๐-๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ข๐ , ๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐โ๐ก๐๐๐๐, ๐กโ๐๐ก ๐ผ ๐๐๐'๐ก ๐กโ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ฆ, ๐๐๐'๐ก ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ก๐๐๐ก๐, ๐๐๐'๐ก ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐คโ๐๐ก ๐ผ ๐๐๐ก๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐ ๐๐ฆ. ๐ผ ๐ค๐๐๐ก ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐-๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐ ๐, ๐๐๐ ๐กโ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ก๐ฆ ๐ก๐ ๐กโ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐ก. ๐ผ ๐ค๐๐๐ก ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐ก ๐๐ฆ ๐กโ๐๐ข๐โ๐ก๐ ๐ก๐๐๐๐กโ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐ ๐ผ ๐ค๐๐๐ก ๐ก๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ก๐ ๐ก๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ฃ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ฆ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ข๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ข๐."
Doesn't this sound familiar? Haven't you experienced these feelings of inadequacy? Wouldn't you give your efforts to have the ability to speak convincingly and persuasively in public?
I hate public speaking. Or should I say, public speaking hates me. Haha! I'm an introvert. I have fear of speaking especially with a large crowd. I love writing and reading.. But I hate speaking in front of people.
Eversince I was a kid, I'm always a timid person. We grew up with our Grandmother who rarely allow us to go and play outside with friends. Thankful though we have many cousins who would play with us at home. Maybe that's one factor that has greatly affected me as a person.
I hate class recitations. I excel in written exams but not in oral recitations. I always have this fear of expressing myself in public through speaking. I always overthink.
What would they think of me if I haven't answered the questions correctly?
What if I haven't clearly explained my answers?
What would they think of me?
All this thoughts were lingering in my head, that eventually leads to having a mental block. ๐คฏ
But honestly... I really wanted to improve myself. I know I could do more if I could just conquer my fear. I'm practicing. Hopefully improving even just a little bit. I have already started working on it little by little. I know I can. I just have to believe in myself. No one could help me more than I could help myself.
Maybe someday.. I will have this confidence. โจ