02/08/2026
“7 YEARS LATER, I WENT TO CHURCH AND PRAYED NA SANA BIGYAN AKO NG COURAGE TO TELL THE TRUTH SA NAGING BF KO…”
Hello, just call me Ae (not my real name), 26F, currently working in Taiwan (OFW). This story is all about my first love, first boyfriend, and first heartbreak. In short, first in everything. I met him when we were in first year college. Classmates kami, and then we started becoming friends for years until we decided to become a couple.
Everything was right and happy. Legal kami sa both sides. Okay kami, everything was smooth. We graduated together and both had work. Kevin (not his real name) is a green flag guy. Masasabi ko talaga that time na sana siya na talaga in the future. But everything went upside down. Nabuntis niya ako at a young age. Oo, nasasabi ko na sana siya na in the future, but not that soon.
7 weeks pregnant na ako tsaka ko lang nalaman na buntis pala ako. Hindi pa ako ready that time kasi ako lang din ang inaasahan ng pamilya ko. I was so scared sa oras na yun. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang gagawin ko, kaya hindi ko muna sinabi sa kaniya na buntis ako. Natatakot ako kasi ang bata pa namin noon. Hanggang sa na-stress ako kasi hindi ko alam paano ko sasabihin sa kaniya.
When I was ready to tell him, suddenly, my baby c0u|dn't make it. Hindi ko alam kung anong mararamdaman ko that time. Nang dahil siguro sa stressed ako. To be honest, naging ma$aya ako kasi hindi pa talaga ako ready. Ang s4ma kong tao, di ba? But at the same time, sobrang sakit kasi b4by ko yun.
So I decided not to tell him the truth. The next thing I did was break up with him kasi natatakot ako baka pag nalaman niya, sisihin niya ako sa pagkawala ng b4by namin. Sinabi ko na lang sa kaniya na ayaw na ng parents ko sa kaniya. I blocked him on all my social media accounts.
That day was the w0rst day ever in my entire life. Imagine, I l0st my b4by, and at the same time, I lost my other half. Ang hirap bumangon. Ang hirap, to the point na gusto ko matulog na lang buong araw. Ayaw ko na magtrabaho, ayaw kong lumabas ng bahay, ayaw ko nang gumising sa umaga.
Walang nakakaalam noon, even my close friends and my family. That's why I decided to go abroad, and that's the reason why I'm here in Taiwan.
Then 7 years later, one of my best friends got pregnant. Nainggit ako kasi meron na rin dapat akong baby ngayon. Kung naging ready lang ako that time, di ako na-stress, edi sana malaki na siya ngayon. The next day, pumunta ako ng church and prayed. I prayed na sana bigyan Niya ako ng courage to tell the truth.
When I got home from church, I chatted my BFFs to tell them the whole story kung bakit kami naghiwalay ni Kevin. I even asked them if I needed to tell him the truth or not, but they said yes because Kevin needed to know the truth. May right siyang malaman ang totoo kasi siya yung tatay ng anak ko.
So I decided to chat him. Sa personal ko sana sasabihin ito, pero hindi ko alam kung magkikita pa ba kami ulit. Na-message ko siya. And now, I can finally say I am free. Makakausad na ako nang walang iniisip sa nakaraan.
Ang sarap sa feeling na masabi mo yung mga hindi mo masabi-sabi sa loob ng ilang taon at makahingi ng tawad sa taong nasaktan ko in the past. 7 years ko ring dala-dala yung bigat na yun.
To my b4by out there, I'm so sorry if mommy was not ready that time. Sorry kasi na-stress ako at hindi mo yun na/k4/y4/nan. And sorry kasi umabot pa ng 7 years bago pa kita naipakilala sa daddy mo. B4by, finally, daddy knows the truth that you existed in our lives. I love you always, and remember that I will never forget you.
And to you, Kevin, I know masaya ka na ngayon. Nahanap mo na yung magiging partner mo in life. Masaya ako sa inyo, totoo yan. Actually, all these years, I still loved you, but it's already too late. Papalayain na kita sa buhay ko for my own sake and for my future. You're my first in everything. Maybe we loved each other at the wrong time.
Pinapalaya na kita, at kasabay nun ang pagpapalaya ko sa sarili ko. Hanggang sa muli, my love. After 7 years, I'm finally free.
Ae
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BSIT Graduate
PLMun
