08/08/2026
It’s August, the weeds have won. I did not accomplish much at all outside this week & that’s okay. That’s what I have to tell myself anyways. The positive side is that Honey and I got to sit outside more this week, spend a lot of time with grandpa, and watch the butterflies while I worked on my phone & laptop. I am trying my best to soak up these little moments that occur throughout the day, even when my mind is racing.
The other day when Honey & I were sitting outside, I had a realization when I was journaling. Why am I so hard on myself? Why do I feel like I have failed? Why am I so weary & scared of being perceived and seen through social media? Is it because I was completely off FB & Instagram for 5 years prior to last year, when I had to create a new personal & business account? I am working on that fear through creating videos, however I obviously need to get over that completely because I own this business, & run every aspect of it!
Why does no one actually talk about how hard it is? How mentally and physically draining it can be at times? Why does any accomplishment I do achieve feel not worth celebrating and I minimize myself?
I look up. There were 8 Swallowtail butterflies total, 1 Monarch, 2 Hummingbirds, 1 Dragonfly, multiple types of Bees, and Wasps flying around the 1 section of the garden we were by. I started crying. In that moment I felt like I was being sent a sign.
How can I feel like a failure when I have brought an abundance of life to our property? I did that WITH MY OWN BARE HANDS! I get to sit outside and hear the birds chirping, the bees buzzing, and the hummingbirds zipping on by. I get to watch the butterflies and moths fly from flower to flower. I get to look forward to searching and watching Petunia(baby bunny) run around the garden. I get to watch caterpillars munch away on their host plants. I get to hear the crickets, and hear the frogs croak at night. In what freaking world is that failing?
It’s August, I won too.
📸: Friday flower, butterfly, & caterpillar photography.
+ Flower Fairy arrangement drop off 🧚
