Wildering

09/03/2026

Grief is grief.

09/03/2026

If so, I’m gonna need their email address so I can share my Google spreadsheet of symptoms.

08/23/2026

If I accept life is suffering then I have to accept that my child will sometimes suffer. And, frankly, that just feels impossible some days.

08/06/2026

I no longer think grief is something that just needs time. I think it needs presence. And a witness. So you can weave it into your life instead of being taken down by it.�

I ran from mine for ten years. Learning how to slow down to how I feel, and name it, in the moment, is what helped me to finally live with it.

08/05/2026

It should not be this hard.

07/30/2026

Loss can be absolutely nonsensical and awful. And I don’t think it’s always helpful to try to find meaning in it. But, there’s something powerful in grief, something that can break you open if you let it and bring you into a greater awareness of your capacity to love and be loved in this life.

07/29/2026

It took me a long time and multiple therapists to figure out how to begin to metabolize the grief of losing eight babies in eight years. Yesterday, I spoke with a friend about how he was going through something similar after losing his wife. Ultimately, it was finding a way to connect with where the grief lives in his body that allowed him to feel heard and seen about all of it. I thought about that yesterday as I walked in the woods with Josef.

07/23/2026

https://youtu.be/65X60mN4ooE?si=XLmQP_cEugsCnfzy

It's beautiful.I do not own or retain rights for this content. Ow...

07/22/2026

I wrote this weeks ago. Yesterday, on my daily river walk, I spotted a Belted Kingfisher sitting on a post over the water. He flew post by post, just ahead, following me for a little while as I watched him and cried and smiled and walked.