08/09/2026
This is how it should be.
Two brothers sharing their birthday cake.
Instead, I had to ask ChatGPT to create this for me.
Their birthdays are only (one year and) 9 days apart, and this is exactly how I always pictured celebrating them... together.
And it makes me so sad that this isnt our reality.
I know I made the decision I had to make. I know why Gomez can't live here. I know Vincent deserves to feel safe in his own home, and Gomez deserves a home where he isn't constantly put in a situation he can't handle. I can know all of those things and still absolutely hate it.
Because look at them.
This is how it should be.
I don't want two separate homes. I don't want separate birthdays and visits and figuring out which dog is going to be where. I want my two boys under my roof. I want stupid dumb pictures whenever I feel like taking them without AI making them. I want the life I thought the three of us were going to have.
And today I realized something that sucks even more:
I don't have one single picture of me with both of my boys. Not one.
I have approximately 47 billion pictures of them. Pictures of them separately. Pictures of them together. But not one picture of the three of us.
I really thought I had more time. Who would have thought I'd only have 10 months to have my two boys under the same roof?!
I'm sad. I'm angry. I'm still pi**ed that things turned out this way... even if I know it was the right decision.
I love them both more than anything.