09/29/2022
Please pray for this hurting mommy and her precious family…. 😞😞😞💔💔💔
Today is such a heavy day for me. Almost too much to bear. Today is exactly 22 months since the accident. It’s a day I’ve been dreading and praying that it wouldn’t be like this, that we would get a miracle before this day. Levi was 22 months old when the accident happened. He lived a healthy, happy 22 months before the worst day of all of our lives occurred. I can’t move on from the grief and despair I feel. How unfair that his life was ripped away from him that night? How unfair all of our hopes and dreams came crashing down? I can’t look at the happy pictures of the first 22 months of his life. I can’t look at his infectious smile, I can’t watch videos and hear him talking and saying mama . My heart has been shattered for 22 months and it feels like it won’t ever be healed. 22 months of holding my breath- hoping , praying, wishing, begging for God to help heal him.
Tomorrow I enter a world where I will have lived more days with my child whose life was taken from him. This is a life I never imagined. This is a life that I would do anything to reverse time.
On top of the heavy grief I feel for Levi tonight, I’m equally as torn and distraught over the fact that Charley was admitted back into the hospital tonight. Another respiratory infection that completely depletes her entire body. How much can one mother’s heart take? I’m so numb to the reality of what life should feel like. For us it’s tears, fear, heartache and pain that we deal with daily. It’s just all too hard.
I’m clinging to the hope that God will hear our cries and bring peace to our family.
Please pray for Charley - for healing over her body, strength to fight this virus, and a plan to give her a better quality of life moving forward.
Please pray for Levi that healing can and will happen.
Please pray for the rest of us - that we may all see the light again one day and have joy returned to our lives.