06/05/2026
I glanced at the letters on top of my medicine cabinet. I felt like it told the story of my life. My initials are leaning on Marc’s. I always leaned on Marc. If I knew nothing else, I knew Marc would be there for me. When we were in high school, we were at his lake house in separate cars for whatever reason. We were on our way home and Marc followed behind me. I pulled out onto the road and the driver behind me quickly started tail gating me. I pulled over to let him go by but instead he pulled over behind me. He came up to my window and started yelling at me. I guess he thought I pulled out too close to him, which I did not imho. I said nothing because before I could even address him, Marc was tapping on his shoulder. The guy turned around and said to Marc “I don’t have a problem with you, I have a problem with her (pointing to me). Marc said “well I have a problem with you because that’s my girlfriend.” The guy couldn’t get back in his car fast enough. Marc was an ox, a wrestler and football player with a lot of Jersey sass. My heart just melted. That definitely contributed to feeling so safe for most of my life. I feel safe now because I feel like he is still looking out for me.
Since he’s been gone, I can’t tell you how many people told me they prayed for me and my family. Recently, some people told me they are still praying for me. Thank you so much. I feel it. It makes a difference. A few months ago, I wanted to stop breathing. I felt so lost and broken. Every moment felt heavy. Days seemed like they wouldn’t end. I did not know how I could possibly live without Marc. Grief is so mysterious, it gives and then takes away whenever it feels like it. But I’ve also realized that I’ve experienced pure love for many years. What a special gift. “Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all”.