07/29/2026
Apparently tonight brings a full moon in Aquarius. Someone on the internet recommended pulling & donating clothes I don’t wear to make room for new opportunities.
It’s been a season of releasing. Slllooooowwwwly. But I finally feel ready to call in something new.
The deaths of my parents changed EVERYTHING. My work, my address, my day to day, my heart, my human suit, my mental health, my identity…ALL OF IT.
Grief is a weird thing. It changes how we experience time. It tethers us to the past. It makes us want to skip ahead into some future when our heart is no longer shattered. (Good luck with that.) All at the same time.
It has been easy to identify who & what I want to be in this new paradigm. It has been harder to get there, with more than just one foot stuck in the past.
I read something else on the internet a few days ago about decluttering, a topic that has been FRONT & CENTER in my brain since Eric & I moved into my childhood home 4 years ago. We moved a 2BR apartment into a fully furnished house with 50 years worth of stuff. I was drowning in grief, and drowning in STUFF.
Anyway, the thing I read was: Don’t ask if an object sparks joy. Ask “is this a job I want?” Thanks to Tessa @ Spatial Awareness Home for this solid gold nugget!
Because let me tell you, maintaining my parents’ wooden avocado trophy from a random cribbage tournament is not a job I want. Keeping the little beige globe 🌏 they accumulated somewhere is not a job I want. Holding onto my wardrobe from my opera days is not a job I want. Even if the clothes are beautiful.
For that matter, being a parentless daughter is not a job that I want. Unfortunately, I can’t get out of this one. But releasing my attachment to the objects that load me down with MORE jobs I don’t want leaves me with more room to do the jobs that I DO WANT.
Like being an artist. And caring for my body and my environment with intention, integrity, and devotion. The things I’ve been deferring because I have been overwhelmed with jobs I do not want.
Today I’ll spend some time clearing out my closet so I can drop off my donation tomorrow. I had been thinking I would try to sell off my better pieces, but honestly I don’t want that job either. I just want the space to make room for the prosperity I’m calling in. I’ll let my new favorite thrift, In the Making in Boyle Heights, do that job & reap the rewards. My opera career & life in NYC have already rewarded me richly.
If you want to hear me & my hero Jodie King Art talk about art & grief & transformation, click the link below. (Heads up, we both curse a bit. 😉)
May we all be bathed in the light of a rainbow glow today. May we BE that light. ♥️
https://youtu.be/1yUjHHL9UpM?is=ELHlemqCjWBPRatt
