11/19/2020
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have you had these mornings love? The ones where you wake up realizing that something is now permanently in the past? β£β£β£
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And you held on for so long, you physically feel the shift and maybe even a slight ache in your heart? Things will never be the same, not all bad, but life is moving forward and thereβs nothing I can do to stop it. β£β£β£
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Last night we had βa talkβ with my son. (No not THAT one... thatβs been long done), but one where we lost a bit of trust in him bc of a choice he made. β£β£β£
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Itβs ok, itβs normal, we knew this exploration of who he wants to become was beginning. β£β£β£
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π΅π’π‘ π€βππ‘ πΌ ππππβπ‘ ππ₯ππππ‘... Was the realization of the REASON he felt he needed to be sneaky & push back. πΌ π€ππ βππππππ ππ π‘ππ π‘ππβπ‘ππ¦. β£β£β£
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I forgot he wasnβt a kid anymore. I forgot that his friends are now becoming as important, if not more at times, as family. I forgot that his friendships are no longer elementary βhi, letβs be best budsβ 5 seconds into meeting. They are becoming REAL friendships. β£β£β£
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So this morning, I felt the softening in my being. And I knew today brought a new chapter in my family. One navigating a pre-teen heart. (Iβm not crying, youβre crying! π). β£β£β£
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I want him to know his voice matters. I want to have a mutual respect. Yes there are consequences for being dishonest. But I also had to admit I was wrong & that I failed to HEAR what he was actually saying. βMom, Iβm not a kid anymore, these people matter to me. Stop thinking this isnβt a big deal to me.β β£β£β£
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Ugh... any mamas out there feeling me??ππΌββοΈ β£β£β£
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So today I will morn my baby boy a little and be excited for this new chapter of communication, guidance, growth together, respect & learning along with him who heβs becoming. π β£β£β£
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For books to help your kiddo navigate these emotions, check my story! β£β£β£β£β£β£β£β£β£β£
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