10/02/2020
I wanted to get on here and share a little about myself. Over the last few weeks I have been listening to friends who have also fallen to the same affliction of self doubt that I have. Studies show that Social Media is a huge source of depression, as we all constantly compare ourselves to the best depiction of the lives of others.
My husband would tell me to quit using it altogether, were it not a necessity for Ginger & Pearl. Today I was listening to a beautiful accomplished woman, the kind of woman that men envy the achievements of, tell me about her struggles, many struggles that I share as a woman and a mom. So Y'all, I want to come clean and put forward my not-so-best foot for you all to see.
I know many of you who follow me just see pretty jewelry and the success I have had, but I want to tell you running a business is hard and took me a long time to reach some level of success. If you have a startup business and you've never been blessed by the instagram gods, gone viral and become an IG celebrity, you're not alone, I'm right there with you. I have felt like every step to get where I am came through constant effort, it has been and still is a real struggle. Being self employed is not for everyone, trust me.
I worry about the small business loan I took out to secure the precious metals I need to get through the year, I worry about the ever increasing number of clayers and jewelers, it's getting saturated and there is not enough clay to go around!!........................ I worry about being a mom, a good mom. I come from a family of women that have all made it their first priority to be wonderful moms to their children. I bend over my workbench shaping wire and cutting clay, I doubt myself thinking of them. I dedicate myself to my work as a craftsman the same way I used to at the piano, countless hours. I guess my hands are restless without something to create. This part about me brings on doubt, about my decisions and priorities. Just today, I was nearly in tears, feeling like it was too much as I was struggling to get orders to the post office with toddlers pursuing me with their insatiable need for my attention.
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