06/20/2026
It seems today is going to be the day that changes the rest of my life the rest of my family's life actually seems to me like it's going to put an imbalance on everything. history actually cuz it wasn't supposed to go this way and it definitely wasn't supposed to end this way I know that somehow God's will. And our selfish desires collided and it's come to this point we've had the system break us down. Make us question our own worth but it's also always giving us the opportunity to grow and to become better. we've done this so many times it's almost redundant but we've always done it together as a team fighting for the same purpose. today's the first time we're on opposite goal post with different game plans that I thought would never happen. but why? And that's the part that will always remain because there's three sides to every story. at least in this case the third party is the only voice that gets heard in the end . And I still didn't want this. I still don't but it seems that my whole world has been backed into a corner turning me into something that I don't want to be while running from something I didn't want to be. And toward something I never wanted to become But there's a victory in it and unselfish for a change victory no matter what the outcome people have to hate you sometimes in order for you to get your point across and sometimes it doesn't even matter because if if your point doesn't matter to them then that point is moot. And after all this it's crazy to me that a whole lifetime basically an entire lifetime and I'm thinking that I was amongst like-minded people, to find out that when it come down to the important things it was as like-minded as red and blue. or hot and cold. or life and death. With a common denominator between all that with a force so strong that both sides of the field want the same thing. the victory but for totally different reasons and in this instance I think the third side of the story is what will be the most accurate outcome. Unfortunately for all of us. I'm so sorry that I wasted this life ,this opportunity , this blessing and to.all I've let down my deepest regrets and apologies are in order and to.anyone that does or ever has loved me thank you so much. If not for you I wouldn't have been and to my special Angel I'll never stop loving you. I was supposed to die in your arms. But I will in my heart
