05/29/2015
thanks to all my prayer family - here's the evening post from daughter Molly regarding tomorrow...
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Molly Coates Motsinger
**WARNING...depressing rant ahead!***
Every 3 months I sit here and think, "I can do this, I'm not going to whine on fb about how scared I am. When will this get easier? Will I ever NOT cry the week before her scans???" I can't sleep at night, I wake up at 4:00 am every day and pray for a healthy baby. The crying is getting a little out of control, and my poor momma has to listen to my chaotic ranting about everything and nothing. (she is an angel!) The scans got messed up last week, my poor grandad is, how do you say it, not going to be with us much longer, and I. AM. SAD.
So, here I am, swallowing my pride and asking for a special prayer tomorrow morning. I know that without my beautiful, amazing FB family I could not do this. Please forgive me for anything I do, leading up to these scans. I am scared. They still haven't written that 'How to deal with your baby having cancer book for dummies' and I'm still trying to learn my "new" self.
So, please continue to walk with me, I know we can get through this together. All of you, each and every one of you, old and new, people I have known for years and people I have never met. I. LOVE. YOU. I really do! I tell God how thankful I am for you, and for the faith that was restored when my sweet Hannah Jane got sick. heart emoticon
