01/06/2026
29 May 2011, 15 years ago, our late mum, Mama has passed away, losing her battle to stage 4 cancer….
I was almost at the end of my third pregnancy while I was in Indonesia with our two young sons for few months to be with Mama. Sadly I had to go back to Cape Town for baby delivery as it was the limit of international flying pregnancy age. With a heavy heart as she was already in palliative care, we went back to CT about a week before she passed away.
Those were one of the saddest moments in my life (the other one was losing our father at the age of 15). My daughter was born in early August that year, I hugged her more tightly every time I missed mama…
The first few years I was struggling from missing her too much yet I satisfied that even I live so far away from her but two years she was battling with cancer I was there in Indonesia to look after her back and forth and staying for months at a time.
Years passed I learn to forget her memories and to focus on my little family and to be a good mum to our kids, as a method to overcome the painful loss. It somehow succeeded. Yet deep in my heart I am too afraid to dig the memories of Mama, her warmth embrace, her everlasting love to us…
Mama, thank you for letting me moving across the continent although we had such a tight bond and spending activities together a lot before I had to move overseas. Thank you for being happy as long as I was happy… thank you for your love for your grandchildren… since that I understand all the love songs, are actually not for lovers, as the most sincere love is family and mother love.
Until we meet again, Mama and Papa in jannah IA.